Seriously, Second Grade?

I wanted to blog about Christian. Is he seriously in second grade this year? This is unfathomable to me for a variety of reasons. First, I remember when he was a cherubic little angel. He was the BEST baby. He was always so happy and content and he had these cheeks that you could just eat up!

Christian was a pretty happy baby through toddlerhood. I know it's hard being "second boy" as my father constantly reminds me. Still though, I try really hard to avoid the middle child syndrome and give him lots of validation and attention. I know it's tough. Having an older brother is tough. There is always someone here who can do it better and faster right now. It won't be like this forever.
I'm not sure when the testosterone hit, but boy did it pack a punch. My sweet, little cherubic angel became a feisty, mischievous little boy. He delights in finding trouble. His days in preschool were fraught with notes and letters from the teacher. It's hard for me, because as a parent, I'm very consistent. I know what I'm doing. But he defies all logic and reason sometimes. I worried about him going to real school because that's serious business. I shouldn't have been concerned though. Mrs. Niedrach was perfect for him and he thrived in her class. I would actually smile at her tales of his defiance because she handled them so effortlessly. She helped me appreciate him for who he is and what his potential is. Where I saw frustration, she saw potential.
We left Kindergarten and went to 1st grade. I'd like to tell a wonderful story here, but I really can't. Which leads me to the second reason that him going back to school is unfathomable. I really, really want Christian to have a great year this year. i want this so bad that I can taste it (is that really an expression?). I want to go back to that time in Kindergarten when things were so effortless. I want him to truly realize his potential and thrive in school like he use to. The fact that school starts in 2 weeks for him makes my stomach hurt. I know that Christian is a smart, sweet child. He is also stubborn and willful.

Christian is getting so big. He is growing and maturing right before my eyes. I know that everyday he is becoming such a special person. I also know that when he's older, I am going to have some stories to tell! And is it really wrong that I sort of secretely hope when he has children, that he gets a little boy who will give him a run for his money like he did to me? If he does though, he will definitely have a great support system (after I finish laughing, of course).

To Christian: My sweet boo-bug. I hope your second grade year is great! You are such a bright and energetic person. You speak your opinions and stand your ground. That is something to be admired. I can't wait to watch you grow and share in your second grade experience with you! I love you!


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